the voices in your head..part 2

"GUYS, FASTERRR!" said Jin. Ben, Irene and Sam went were catching up with Jin as he was so eager  to try the rides. Ben stood there with his jaws dropped... the theme park was packed with people. It was totally different from what he saw when they first came in. He was so curious about this mystery but after seeing all the fun rides, all his doubt disappeared as he joined his friends for the rides.

While Ben and his friends were heading to the Captain ship ride, Irene stopped and called Ben and the other to come over.. There was a magic show...When all of them were enjoying the show,  Ben noticed that there was a antique clock hanging on the magician's shirt and also the clown which was giving out the balloons.. Ben's doubt had risen up again... What kind of clown will have a clock on his shirt? He decided to keep the thought to himself as he did not want to ruin the joyful mood.

Just when they were heading back tot he Captain ship ride, Ben heard something... Tik tok, tik tok,tik tok,tik tok,tik tok... the sound of the clock was heard softly in his head... When the sound stopped... Jin was lost... All of them were panicking as it very to find a missing person in a theme park. On the moment itself, Ben suggested that they should split up to find Jin.. and meet up at their room after 2 hours.. All of them agreed with Ben's idea and split up to find Jin.

Sam was walking anxiously... He worried that something bad might happen to Jin.. He regretting not listening to Ben's words.. Just when he was feeling depressed about it.. He saw Jin by glancing at the corner of his eye.. He immediately called out for him but Jin did not listen... Sam saw Jin walked into a building and he had not choice but to went into the building to bring Jin out..

On his first step into the building.. Sam was astonished... The building was full of mirrors.. He could see his own reflection everywhere... As he was walking, he saw Jin in of the mirror..He ran towards the mirror and found out it was just Jin's reflection... After a while, Sam decided to regroup with his friends to find Jin together.. He was convinced that Jin have not left the building as he did not hear any door sound... To his horror, he could not find the way out....So, he tried to call his friends by cellphone but there was no reception.. He tried to yell for help but there was no response..Then,  he realised.. He was lost in this building filled with mirrors... Forever....  tik tok,tik tok,tik tok.. was all he was able to hear...

To be continue... Neko :)

The voices in your head.. part 1

 Ben and his friends, Sam, Irene, Jin and Henry decided to go for a trip during the holidays as most of their friends had went back to their respective hometowns to reunite with their family. At first, they wanted to go for a camping but Jin suggested that they should do something better than that. The others could not get what Jin was trying to say.. They attempted several guesses but all Jin did was shake his head. In the end, Jin told them that he found tickets on the ground to a theme park with free accommodation and the price was dirt cheap. As a college students,all of them agree to do so as their budget was low.

After packing, they met up at the subway station. They were chatting happily as they were able to enjoy a 2 days 1 night trip with such little expense. Upon stepping into the train, they noticed the lights in the train flickering.Somehow, the air had eerie atmosphere, but the moment passed in a blink of an eye so nonchalantly, they dismissed their worries and thought no more about it. The train service resumed in a matter of seconds so they continued on light hearts, not knowing what truly awaits them at the venue.

The journey to the theme park was successful. They were enthusiastic to see magnificent rides but to their disappointment.. It was just an old and worn out theme park, this unwelcome sight gave them a bad impression about the theme park but they consoled themselves that the rides were still functioning fine.. the manager was there to welcome them.. Well, at least they are friendly... that was what they thought.. The manager guided them to their room to drop their luggage and stuff.. When they reached their room, they told the manager they wanted to rest for a while before enjoying themselves in the theme park.. The manager just nodded and smiled then he left..

After Sam closed the door, Ben immediately gathered his friends and held a meeting. All of them did not want to do it and it seems pointless but Ben's expression changed their decision. They had a meeting. " It just so odd... how can a theme park can be so quiet... and there was nobody expect us.. The eccentric manager' smile is kinda freaking me out" he said. Jin replied him, saying Ben was worrying too much.. " Hey, maybe I picked up the VIP tickets... come on guys, we might be the VIP.. we can play the rides without queuing up.. that just so amazing!" Irene , Henry and Sam were so excited after hearing the statement made by Jin... They immediately wear their sneakers and headed out..Ben just ignored the thought he had and joined them... Because of that... a disaster was about to happen upon them...

To be continue... neko :)

Read this when you are tired of everything

Hi guys, I know it been a while since my last post. Well, I actually in the middle of an examination. I know I know I should be studying now but I just thought of something... Something that we actually did not realise until now. And this is most likely the last post I will be doing as this was originally a part of my homework but without me realising it.. I actually put in a lot of effort in this.. Thus, when this year ends I most likely will be not using this blog anymore. This last post are my last words.

                                                     

I know what it is like to feel tired and not just in the physical sense.

The world that we live in is an exhausting place to be. It is wearing. It is thankless. It is endlessly trying and hardly rewarding. You’re tired simply because you live in it. You’re tired of loving too much, caring too much, giving too much to a world that never gives anything back. You are tired of investing in indefinite outcomes. Tired of uncertainties. 

I know you have not always been this worn out , that there was a time when you were hopeful and pure. When your optimism outweighed your cynicism and you had an infinite amount in you to give. I know you have been chipped away and worn down piece by piece...a broken heart here and unkept promises there. I know the world has not always been kind throughout the games you’ve played and that you have lost more times than you have ever won. I know you’re feeling uninspired to try again. I know.

Because the truth is, we are all tired. Every single one of us. By a certain age, we are all nothing more than an army of broken hearts and aching souls, desperately searching for fulfillment. We want more but we’re too tired to ask for it. We’re sick of where we are but we are too scared to begin again. We need to take risks but we’re afraid to watch it all come crashing down around us. After all, we are not sure how many times we will be able to start over.

We all think we are alone in our exhaustion. But the truth is we are tired of each other...tired of the games we play and the lies we tell and the uncertainties we present to each other. We do not want to play the villain but we don’t want to play the fool either. So our guards go up. And we take on the role that we hate to see played because we are not sure what choice we have left.

I know how impossible it can feel to go on trying and giving and becoming when you are exhausted straight through to the soul. I know that the cheerful ideals you were once promised now seem tired and hopeless. But here’s what I beg if you’re this close to giving up: give it one more try, with feeling. I know you are tired of your attempts. I know that you’re at your wit’s end. But the truth about that second wind of passion is that you’re never going to realize you have it if you do not keep on running past your first. And trust me, the more you fail, the more likely you are to succeed.

We are all stronger than we think, and that’s an undeniable truth. There is always more love that we are capable of giving, more hope that we are capable of having, more passion that we are capable of unleashing and flooding out into the world. We just don’t walk far enough down our own roads to reach the point where we’re seeing those actions pay off. We want immediate results and when we see none, we give up. We let the exhaustion stop us. We grow frustrated with the lack of feedback and we assume that means we have to throw the entire attempt right out the window.

Because here’s something we all loathe to admit...none of us are inspired every day. We all get exhausted. We all get discouraged. And we’re allowed to work on through those feelings. Just because you are beaten down and worn out and sick of the life that you are living does not mean you are not making a change. Every person you have ever admired has had times where they felt utterly defeated in the pursuit of their dreams. But that did not prevent them from reaching them. You are allowed to stumble slowly towards your biggest transformations. It does not always have to be a blazing and obvious affair.

Some parts of life happen quietly. They happen slowly. They happen because of the small, careful choices that we make everyday, that turn us into better versions of ourselves. We have to allow ourselves the time to let those alterations happen. To watch them evolve. To not grow hopelessly frustrated in between.

When you are tired, go slowly. Go quietly. Go timidly. But do not stop. You are tired for all the right reasons. You are tired because you are supposed to be. You are tired because you are making a change in your life. You are exhausted for all the right reasons and it is only an indication to go on. You are tired because you are growing stronger. And someday that growth will give way to the exact rejuvenation that you need.

Neko :)

First meal

One of my most unforgettable moment is my life is when I first started cooking. It might sound simple and boring but it was a wonderful experience for me. I was 7 when I prepared my first meal. Well, dont expect too much. All I did was preparing Maggi Mee.

Maggi Mee is a instant food. It can be prepared within a few minutes. It so easy to make that it is one of the first things kids are allowed to prepare their own. And it is much easier if you use the alternative cup version. I remembered I had some trouble preparing it as I was not tall enough. I had some help from my brother. I dint know that it can be prepare within 3/4 minutes so I left the noodles in the boiling water around 10 minutes. Of course, the noodles turned out kinda mushy. Even though, I finished the noodles :)

Nowadays, many students make Maggi Mee an essential part of their student days aboard and becomes the ideal starting point in being truly independent by being given the ability to prepare a meal on their own. sooner or later the basic skill is honed and ingredients are added in for an extra twist, flavour or not. The assorted flavours available have made everything so much more convenient , providing more opportunities to test out fledgling culinary skills.

For me, I think there is no way you can go wrong with Maggi Mee. It can be prepared in various ways to create different flavour. For instance, in Malaysia, eating Maggi Mee at different mamak stalls is very interesting as different kind of mamak stalls have their own unique way to preapre Maggi Mee.

Can you imagine... During a heavy downpour, a pitiful poor man with his clothes drenched come to your house and beg for food but you do not know how to cook. All you need to do is just prepare a steaming hot bowl of one Maggi Mee that will warm the heart and strengthen the spirit of the man as the Maggi Mee reaches across the distance and brings cherished memories to the fore of his loved ones. This will encourage him to go on in life and do his best to make his loved ones happy.

Neko:)

Keep calm and carry on

Everyone has experienced tension in their lives. Tension is an essential function of living. It is a self protective reaction when we find ourselves faced with threats to our safety, well-being or self esteem.

Recognising the signs of  tension will help you deal with the situation or problem in hand. If you find it difficult to get along with people around you , small pleasures in life do not satisfy you, you are unable to stop thinking about your problems, you fear people or situations which never used to bother you, you are suspicious of your family or friends, you feel inadequate and always suffer the tortures of self doubt, DO NOT PANIC. There always actions you can take to make things better.

When something is not right , just talk it out. Share your problems or anxiety with someone you can trust. Iron out your dissatisfaction to help you solve the problem or at least help you see things from a different perspective.

Sometimes it helps to get away from a problem by immersing yourself in other activities for a change of mood. Forcing yourself to face to face the problem when you may not be getting answers is not helpful. Suffering will not help solve the problem. Wait until you are  more composed emotionally and intellectually before dealing with the problem.

People under tension will feel that an ordinary workload is too much to handle. Therefore, proritise your work. Deal one thing at a time. Finish the most urgent tasks first and set aside the others. Once the urgent ones are dealt with, you will find the rest easier to solve.

It is also always best to go easy with criticism. Some people expect too much from others and are often frustrated when they do not measure up. In order to avoid this, keep in mind that each person has a right to develop as an individual. Therefore, instead of being critical with others always look for their good points and focus on that.

Most of the time, the emotional obstacles we face arise from practical problems. Who does not want peace of mind and good health? However, only a few of use are fortunate to have all internal qualities and external circumstances these things.And they have to work to maintain it too. But for the rest of us, we have to work to achieve them. This means striving for  better understanding of ourselves and the people around us. This also means working out our problems and seeking help when we cannot do it ourselves.

Neko:)

Angels we call friends

What would you do if you lost something important? What would you do if promises were broken? If you were lost and needed direction? And if all the things you work hard for did not result in anything? How would you react?

Broken promises, losing direction in life and wasted hard work.... All these things happened in just one day. Someone who dearest to me, who knows all my secrets left me... Forever... All my promises I had with that person were broken.. My pillar of strength was gone.. Everything I did until then were for nothing..

That person encouraged me to study and I felt that I have to remember this person for eternity.Just a few days before my exam, that person passed away.That time , I was so lost as it was my first time having somebody so close to me died. I was so down and I could not focus studying, sports and even during exam period. I had bad grades because of that incident.

My friends told me cheer up and forget about but I just cant do it. I would wake up in the middle of the night because I had a dream about that person and cant fall back asleep. One day, one of my friends approach to me and I told her my problems. She was kind enough to help me get back up on  my feet and continue to encourage me in the things I do.

Then, I realised. Life is not a journey where you can walk alone. Challenges will come and hit you down. You might think you are able to go through it but when you try to face the challenge, you will realise it is not easy at all. Emotions tend to overwhelm and mess up your decision. At eh time like this, you will feel hopeless and wallow in despair. During time like this, try to request  help from others. There will be kind sould who will come your way and give you hope and the help you need.

I have come to understand one thing in life: " the lowest point of life brings you back to the peak". People need to go through the highs and lows in life in order to become better. To me, someone who can be calm and think logically all the time and understand the emotions of others by showing empathy. Lessons in life are valuable but you cant get them with with or from books and schools. You learn it from experience.

Neko :)

Friend "A"

Helo peeps, I had been really busy doing assignment given by my school teachers and studying for my upcoming exam. I have a lot of things to share but I will set my priority right and tell you guys about my feelings in romance.

I paid extra attention to this girl since last year.Both of us was in the same club and I just dont know why but I find her kinda attractive. It is not really love at the first sight but I started to have feelings for her after several club meeting. Even though we are in the same club, I never talk to her. I did not have to courage to approach to her thus I only glanced at her during the club meeting.

Things were better this year. We somehow got into a conversation and our friendship started. Both of us began to talk to each other more and I felt very excited as I am making progress in the relationship. One day, everything changes when the fire nation attack. Only the master of four element could stop them but the world needed him most he vanished. <---- quote from Avatar : the Last Airbender.

Sorry guys, I was just fooling around. Back to my story.. One day, I found out she was going out with my another friend. At that time, I thought he was just a friend. Later on, I heard from my friends that they were actually going out. I was so lost at the moment , I did not know how to react. As both of them were quite shy thus both of they will ask me to get them together or help to start a conversation then leave me out from the topic. Sometimes, they need their personal time together thus I had to withdrawn from them. Basically, I am kinda a bridge to their relationship.

From that day onward, I just could not face her. I tried to talk to her but our conversation did not lasted for a few minutes. It was very awkward for both of us so I decided to walk away. Since then, we seldom talk to each other. I did not know what am I supposed to do with this.

Recently, I had decide to carry the torch for her as I could not do anything to improve or bring our relationship to another level. I am still having doubt about this decision but I am sure time will show me the way.

Neko :)