Read this when you are tired of everything

Hi guys, I know it been a while since my last post. Well, I actually in the middle of an examination. I know I know I should be studying now but I just thought of something... Something that we actually did not realise until now. And this is most likely the last post I will be doing as this was originally a part of my homework but without me realising it.. I actually put in a lot of effort in this.. Thus, when this year ends I most likely will be not using this blog anymore. This last post are my last words.

                                                     

I know what it is like to feel tired and not just in the physical sense.

The world that we live in is an exhausting place to be. It is wearing. It is thankless. It is endlessly trying and hardly rewarding. You’re tired simply because you live in it. You’re tired of loving too much, caring too much, giving too much to a world that never gives anything back. You are tired of investing in indefinite outcomes. Tired of uncertainties. 

I know you have not always been this worn out , that there was a time when you were hopeful and pure. When your optimism outweighed your cynicism and you had an infinite amount in you to give. I know you have been chipped away and worn down piece by piece...a broken heart here and unkept promises there. I know the world has not always been kind throughout the games you’ve played and that you have lost more times than you have ever won. I know you’re feeling uninspired to try again. I know.

Because the truth is, we are all tired. Every single one of us. By a certain age, we are all nothing more than an army of broken hearts and aching souls, desperately searching for fulfillment. We want more but we’re too tired to ask for it. We’re sick of where we are but we are too scared to begin again. We need to take risks but we’re afraid to watch it all come crashing down around us. After all, we are not sure how many times we will be able to start over.

We all think we are alone in our exhaustion. But the truth is we are tired of each other...tired of the games we play and the lies we tell and the uncertainties we present to each other. We do not want to play the villain but we don’t want to play the fool either. So our guards go up. And we take on the role that we hate to see played because we are not sure what choice we have left.

I know how impossible it can feel to go on trying and giving and becoming when you are exhausted straight through to the soul. I know that the cheerful ideals you were once promised now seem tired and hopeless. But here’s what I beg if you’re this close to giving up: give it one more try, with feeling. I know you are tired of your attempts. I know that you’re at your wit’s end. But the truth about that second wind of passion is that you’re never going to realize you have it if you do not keep on running past your first. And trust me, the more you fail, the more likely you are to succeed.

We are all stronger than we think, and that’s an undeniable truth. There is always more love that we are capable of giving, more hope that we are capable of having, more passion that we are capable of unleashing and flooding out into the world. We just don’t walk far enough down our own roads to reach the point where we’re seeing those actions pay off. We want immediate results and when we see none, we give up. We let the exhaustion stop us. We grow frustrated with the lack of feedback and we assume that means we have to throw the entire attempt right out the window.

Because here’s something we all loathe to admit...none of us are inspired every day. We all get exhausted. We all get discouraged. And we’re allowed to work on through those feelings. Just because you are beaten down and worn out and sick of the life that you are living does not mean you are not making a change. Every person you have ever admired has had times where they felt utterly defeated in the pursuit of their dreams. But that did not prevent them from reaching them. You are allowed to stumble slowly towards your biggest transformations. It does not always have to be a blazing and obvious affair.

Some parts of life happen quietly. They happen slowly. They happen because of the small, careful choices that we make everyday, that turn us into better versions of ourselves. We have to allow ourselves the time to let those alterations happen. To watch them evolve. To not grow hopelessly frustrated in between.

When you are tired, go slowly. Go quietly. Go timidly. But do not stop. You are tired for all the right reasons. You are tired because you are supposed to be. You are tired because you are making a change in your life. You are exhausted for all the right reasons and it is only an indication to go on. You are tired because you are growing stronger. And someday that growth will give way to the exact rejuvenation that you need.

Neko :)